There’s Something Within Me That Wants to Be the Best…

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We all have this burning desire to be number one in something.

No matter what it costs us.

That “something” is different for all of us.  But it’s there.  It’s the part of human nature that has made us innovate from the time of the Stone Age till now–the Technology age.

For me, this is CrossFit.

I went to the gym early today to work out by myself.  It was 2 am.  No one was awake or on the streets.  Empty and silent like a forgotten tomb.

I cranked the music and got to work.  I immediately noticed how sore I was–especially my legs.  I had done 18.1 twice now and worked out yesterday as well.  I had lifted heavy on Saturday.  I had deadlifted on Monday.  And here I was…beating myself up again…

And why?

To be number one.

I thought how I’d look to an outside person.

One word:  insane.

It’s 3 am, and I’m working out.  The volume of work I had done since Friday would be enough for the average person for a month.  I’m pushing my body and pushing and pushing.  My legs are sore.  My arms are sore.  I’m bruised and battered.  Yet I’m at it again.

To be number one.

I stayed after my workout to work on handstands and muscle ups.  I can’t get them, and when I can’t get something I work all the more harder because I want it so much more.

To be number one.

At some point I think we all ask ourselves, “Is this worth it?  Is all of this work worth it?”

For me, the answer has always been yes.

I thrive on what others won’t do.  Can’t do.

Quitting is never an option.  Ever.

I’ve gotten this far with this attitude.  This mindset.  This process.  Hard work.

Regionals?

Who knows?

 

The sky’s the limit.  The stars are reachable.  Dreams exist for a reason.

Embrace them.  Strive for them.  Love them.  Cherish them.  Respect them.

But above all don’t quit until your dream is a reality.

Otherwise, life has no meaning…

It’s Not About How My Body Looks…

It’s about what it can do.

We all care about how we look.

Unless you grew up in a cornfield.

It’s ingrained in us since childhood from society and culture.

You can’t escape it.

It’s a given I don’t look like most women.  Most women don’t lift heavy weight.

When I first started CrossFit, I never thought about my body or what would happen to it.  I just love the sport and went every day.  It wasn’t until people started commenting on my physique that I started to pay attention.  I started looking around.  It was then that I noticed I had changed.  Big time.

A lot of women don’t do CrossFit because they don’t want to look like me.  I get that.

But for me, it’s about what my body can do.  I can do pull ups.  I can squat heavy.  I can do muscle ups.  I can deadlift.  I can run.  I can do almost every move.  And I’m strong.

I’m proud of my hard work.  And it shows.  When I can do something others can’t, it makes me feel special.  But it also is a reward for all the hard work I do.

Ask anyone who knows me:  I work harder than most.  I’m in the box before and after the WOD.  I work out at home.  I do skills every day.  Rarely do I have a day off without doing anything.

All this culminates in muscle ups and heavy snatches and pull ups and double unders and handstand walks.

This is why I’m so excited about the Open.  I want to know just how far I’ve come since last year compared to others my age.  I want to know that my sacrifices are worth it.

My body takes a beating.  No question about it.  If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ve read all about my pulled muscles, strained ligaments and tendons, soreness, bruises, rips, etc.  CrossFit does this to you.

CrossFit also changes your body.  If you lift heavy weights, it has to.

But none of that matters.

All that matters to me is how CrossFit makes me feel.  I feel empowered.  I feel strong.  I feel capable of accomplishing any task in my life.  My self-esteem is at an all time high.  I believe in myself.  So much so I’m running for Town Board in my town.

All this because of a sport that challenges the brain as much as the body.

If it’s not hard work, then you’re wasting your time.womens-crossfit-body-920x920

Push yourself in all aspects of life.

You only live once.  Make the most of it.  Do what makes you feel accomplished and beautiful and strong and healthy and a contributing member of society.

For me, that’s CrossFit.

What is it for you?