When you want to reach out, but you don’t know how
When you know you should pull back, but you ignore that anyhow
When life throws you curves, you go straight
When you throw reckless to the wind, you find the perfect mate
When you’re so fucked up, you wonder how you’re alive
Only one thing pulses the heart — and he’s suicide.
I’ve taken an unintended break, mainly because I was so angry about my body.
Not necessarily how it looks (although I’m not happy with it).
More I’m angry at having been injured all year long. So I couldn’t stand to write about CrossFit because I was so angry.
The 2020 CrossFit Open came and went. I actually did quite well, considering I was injured. To be truthful, I hated every moment of every workout.
However, I couldn’t take it anymore, so I finally went back to my doctor, who gave me the all clear again to begin working out.
So, I’m back.
A heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I’m ready to begin again. Next week, I’ll start a new program to reach my CrossFit goals for the year:
- Ring muscle up in the next six months
- Bar muscle ups fixed in the six months after that
- Get stronger in back squat
- Get stronger in deadlift
- Perfect handstand walks
These are my main CrossFit goals. I have others, but these are first. In essence, I don’t want another CrossFit Open to roll my way without having these skills in my wheelhouse.
Does heaven on earth get any better than handstands in a pumpkin patch?
Yesterday, I had a CrossFit Competition in Fort Collins at the Madwire building. Project UpLift 5.0 benefits Kids at Heart, a non-profit that supports foster and adoptive families. This was my third year in a row participating and the first time I actually got a team together since usually I don’t have a team and end up as a fill-in with people I don’t know.
This one was fun, but I had reinjured my thumb the night beforehand doing snatches for another online competition I’m doing (The Turkey Challenge qualifier) that was just irksome and troublesome. My thumb hurt for most of the competition, but luckily there was no heavy lifting involved.
Overall, it was fun. It was a different vibe this year than the previous years. Normally, it was held at Whole Foods parking lot, but I think it has gotten too big for that. They had kids’ activities and a bouncy house, but my kids didn’t have as much fun as in previous years.
Overall, an okay day. I gotta get my injury healed…
I don’t normally do two CrossFit competitions in one weekend, but one came up that I did last year that I wanted to do again, and I had already signed up for a different one, so I did both.
The first one, Rocky Mountain Showdown at CrossFit DNR in Fort Collins was fun. We made it to the semi-finals, but it’s hard when you’re knocked out by a 19-year-old.
The second one, Battle at the Rock at CrossFit Castle Rock, I did last year. This year was just as fun. I came in third here.
Some highlights from this past weekend:
- I ran a 7-minute mile flat. I haven’t done that in forever.
- I clean and jerked 125 lb, the most I’ve done since my thumb injury.
As most of you know, I have been battling some type of injury most of this year. I still have my thumb injury that is taking forever to heal. Currently, I have a lung inflammation (at least that was what I was told last week). Now, I’m on meds for a lung infection. So I worked out all weekend sick.
Part of it is/was dumb.
But it makes me wonder what I can do if I’m ever 100% well again.
As most of you know, I’ve been battling injuries all year. My thumb is still not healed (could be six months from what I’ve read online), and now I caught the first of the school year cold, which has morphed into a coughing frenzy. I went to the doctor yesterday for some drugs, so hopefully that will kick this damn thing to the curb.
I CAN STILL KICK ASS IN CROSSFIT
For the last year or so, I’ve also struggled with CrossFit workouts. Most of the time, I’m only going half-speed and just trying to get through it from a mental perspective. Yesterday, I did one of my all time favorite workouts from the Open, CrossFit Open 17.5, which is:
10 rounds for time of:
- 9 thrusters 65 lbs
- 35 double unders
When I did this back in 2017, I held the best time for women at my box. I love thrusters and double unders. So I was excited for this one, but realistic. I’m sick, and my thumb is screwed up.
However, I beat my time by almost two whole minutes! It was cool to see that when I want it, it’s still there — even if I’m not 100%.
When you’re injured, it affects you both physically and mentally.
At this point, I’m doing what I can with CrossFit.
Trying to stay active, but be cautious about it. And trying to keep my mental game in check since some days it’s all I can do to get up and move.
I gotta be happy with that.