God, I hate that word.
Such a negative connotation.
But an unavoidable one as I can’t think of a proper synonym.
So my “diet” is going well. Perhaps too well.
I’ve lost almost 8 pounds in two months. I’ve definitely leaned out that’s for sure, which was my goal. However, I need to keep my strength gains going so I don’t want to lose anymor.
It’s a delicate balance and one I still need to tweak.
But seeing results is a good thing. And I feel much better than I did with excess fat due to unhealthy eating habits.
Now the problem with eating outside of my diet (like cake and ice cream on my daughter’s birthday) is the horrible stomach pains I feel afterwards. Yuck!
Work is easy.
When it becomes easy, it’s time to move on.
The Open is coming. I gotta prepare. I finally feel “over” my injuries.
It’s go time.
In both areas of my life.
When I need a change, I get an itch. Not a literal one. But an uneasiness inside. And it’s here now.
I’m praying about a job that will pay me what I’m worth and work for my family and one I can be passionate about and not dread every day.
Today in CrossFit I realized I need to push myself more. I can be so much faster. But I didn’t push. I was upset afterwards.
I’m at the level in CrossFit where I’m the first one done, but I have no one to push me. And I need that. And in my box it doesn’t exist.
I’m uneasy in both areas. I feel like I’m not doing enough. I need to do more.
Short skirts. Even shorter shorts. Tank Tops. Bathing suits. Hair up.
Lots of skin exposed.
And if you have muscle, lots of muscle as well.
Lately, I’ve been stared at A LOT!
Now, I’m fairly good looking with a body only 1% of women have. It draws attention. Most of it unwelcome.
I was in Starbucks two days ago in my workout gear cause I was heading to teach a fitness class and wanted a drink to heat up after I was finished.
An old guy seated nearby blatantly stared and didn’t break eye contact when I met his gaze. Uh.
Pumping gas at Costco, a guy in his mid-40’s did the same thing.
I know I look different than most women. And I do wear revealing clothes because I do work hard at my body and I want to be comfortable and cool like everyone else. Plus, I’m tired of trying to be inconspicuous when it doesn’t really work anyways (see post HERE for more of this).
There are two ways to deal with this:
- Take it as a compliment. You are beautiful and men like to look (sometimes stare, glare, gawk, and leer) at beautiful things (they are visual creatures, ya know).
- Get upset about it. Let it bother you and carry it with you all day long.
It’s easier to take it as a compliment than let others bother you. However, this can be hard. It DOES get old quick.
Be comfortable with yourself and who you are. Sure, men and women will stare at you. Women are usually envious. Men are usually lustful. That is human nature and normal reactions.
Keep in mind: they don’t affect you unless you let it! You are in control of your reactions to others. Let it slide off and move on with your day. In your heart, mind, and soul is where the beauty lies. Let it shine!