The Ebbs and Flows of CrossFit

Ugh…

My comp on Saturday really brought me down.  It’s depressing to think you’re not as good as you think you are.

I was sore all day Sunday and Monday.  I had to push myself to back squat and drag myself to the box this morning.

I go through these ups and downs periodically with CrossFit.  Pushing myself so hard mentally mostly that I crash.  I’ve been getting up early, lifting in my garage, going to the box before class, lifting and training there, doing the program and the WOD every day since May.  I’ve done 3 comps in 8 weeks.  I’ve honed my diet and lost 8 pounds and am toned.  I did a bar muscle up course and now a toes to bar course.

I’m reaping the results physically but mentally it’s rough.  I fight the thought This is NOT worth it many times a day.

The Open is coming in 4 months, and I literally want to crush every workout so I can’t back down now.  But some days I want to.  And today was one of those days.exhaustion-759x1024

But I dragged myself.  I had a good WOD workout.  It wasn’t my best cause I was sore.  I PR’ed my overhead squat, which didn’t make me feel any better.  And I did it.

It wasn’t easy.

But nothing in life worth doing is ever easy.

And it’s those who persevere that come out on top.