My comp on Saturday really brought me down. It’s depressing to think you’re not as good as you think you are.
I was sore all day Sunday and Monday. I had to push myself to back squat and drag myself to the box this morning.
I go through these ups and downs periodically with CrossFit. Pushing myself so hard mentally mostly that I crash. I’ve been getting up early, lifting in my garage, going to the box before class, lifting and training there, doing the program and the WOD every day since May. I’ve done 3 comps in 8 weeks. I’ve honed my diet and lost 8 pounds and am toned. I did a bar muscle up course and now a toes to bar course.
I’m reaping the results physically but mentally it’s rough. I fight the thought This is NOT worth it many times a day.
The Open is coming in 4 months, and I literally want to crush every workout so I can’t back down now. But some days I want to. And today was one of those days.
But I dragged myself. I had a good WOD workout. It wasn’t my best cause I was sore. I PR’ed my overhead squat, which didn’t make me feel any better. And I did it.
It wasn’t easy.
But nothing in life worth doing is ever easy.
And it’s those who persevere that come out on top.