Job interviews. A necessary evil. Always uncomfortable. Never fun.
Lately, I’ve been seeking another part-time job. I had an interview last week, and I wore a nice sleeveless dress. In the past, I would NEVER have done this.
Because my muscles show. And I never know what people think of a woman with muscles and I didn’t want to bias any of them.
Last year, I was seeking a job as well, and I purposely wore clothes on every interview to hide my muscles. I didn’t want to be judged because of them. Furthermore, if a man was interviewing me, I didn’t think he’d find them all that attractive and may even be jealous. And I didn’t want that.
This time around I have a different attitude: I don’t care any more if I’m judged because of my muscles. I work damn hard at my body and I like showing them off. I like wearing form-fitting dresses and skirts. I like being a woman and I shouldn’t be ashamed of that.
And it’s summer. I can’t exactly wear a sweater or long sleeves. So a sleeveless dress makes sense.
Besides, my CrossFit certification is on my resume. I can’t exactly hide it, now can I? Nor do I want to. Not anymore.
I’m strong and proud. As we all should be. No matter our body types.
For the past 6 months, I’ve been struggling with body image. When I first started CrossFit, I lost a lot of weight and fell to 11% body fat. Consciously, I decided to try to gain weight, which I have. However, I have also packed on the muscle. A LOT of muscle. Some of this has been my abdominals.
Seeing pictures of all the professional CrossFit women, they all have intense protruding abs due to the insane amount of midline work CrossFit demands. Well, I’m beginning to have that as well. I’ve been hung up on this because in the media we are bombarded with images of thin women with a flat stomach. How society thinks we should look.
I spent the night in a hotel room the other night, and there was a full length mirror. I was able to see my body clearly for the first time in a long time. And I’m beautiful! I’m the fittest and healthiest I’ve ever been. In all aspects. I’m still curvy just in a muscular way.
I know it’s easier said than done–to accept your body. But I’m getting there. Small steps climb high mountains.
We’re only given one body. We shouldn’t let others shame us over it. Take care of it, and it will take care of you.