I was deadlifting this morning early in my garage.
I hate deadlifting. I don’t know why, but I do.
As the weight got heavier and I began to realize I was dreading this more and more, I asked myself why I was doing this? Why was I doing something I don’t like?
CrossFit is about doing a bunch of things well, and working on the ones you don’t do so well. Yet, at the same time, as I age, I don’t want to waste time doing something I don’t like doing.
You could say I had an epiphany.
I also realized I probably was never going to increase my deadlift weight because I hate doing it. I haven’t maxed my deadlift or my back squat in about two years. I am just never there mentally.
And I realized something: that’s ok. I am extremely fit. I don’t need to do something that is hard, heavy, and I hate doing.
Will I still deadlift? Sure. A lot? Probably not.
And for once, I’m okay with that.