I’m Not Happy Unless I’m on Top…

I finished 28th in my state for the CrossFit Open in my age group.

I finished 67th in my region for the CrossFit Open in my age group.

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I finished 716th in the United States for my age group.

I finished 1077th worldwide for my age group.

Last year, I finished 56th in my state.

I finished 127th in my region.

I finished 1244th in the United States.

I finished 1845th worldwide.

A substantial improvement in one year’s time.  To be exact, that’s 48% in my state higher.  52% in my region.  And 57% in the US.  58% worldwide.

Am I satisfied with the results?

No, not really.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I moved up.  But I’m not happy with my scores.

I don’t have ring muscle ups.  I’m not as strong as I need to be yet.  My chest to bar, pull ups, and handstand push-ups all need work.  So does other holes in my wheelhouse.

The fact of the matter is I’m not happy unless I’m on top.

Period.

The fact of the matter is I won’t ever be on top because there’s always someone out there better than you.  I get that.

The other fact of the CrossFit Open is it’ll never cater to my strengths and thus I’ll never be on top as well.

My strengths are the long game (workouts over 20 minutes), running, body weight exercises, light-weight barbell moves with many repetitions, and double unders.  We’ll never see Murph in the Open.  Or running (too hard to measure).  Or probably the long game.

These are the workouts I need in order to be on top.

My lamentations are irksome, I know.  I just had to vent.

One thing’s for sure:  I am determined to make vast improvements over this next year.  To have all the moves mastered.  And quickly.  To perfect them as much as I can.  To get stronger.

Then we’ll see what next year holds…

After Five Weeks, the Open Has Come to a Close…

I finished 18.5 last night and felt horrible.

I had to sit down for 15 minutes and then eat something.Open 18.5

Still, I felt bad.  I usually never feel bad after a workout.

I think it was a combination of things:  stress, anxiety, pressure, my wrist sprain, odd workout times for me, pushing hard on 18.5, etc that my body protested.

I came home and took a bath.  Laid down.  Felt a bit better…

The Open this year was tough.  Very tough.  Demoralizing in a way I haven’t been in a long time.

Training begins now for next year.

I’m unsure yet how much of a break I’ll take first.

Right now, I’m just enjoying it being over.  I’m awaiting Wednesday when I find out my final place in the region.  I know it’s better than last year and that’s all I could have hoped for…