I’m Not Happy Unless I’m on Top…

I finished 28th in my state for the CrossFit Open in my age group.

I finished 67th in my region for the CrossFit Open in my age group.

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I finished 716th in the United States for my age group.

I finished 1077th worldwide for my age group.

Last year, I finished 56th in my state.

I finished 127th in my region.

I finished 1244th in the United States.

I finished 1845th worldwide.

A substantial improvement in one year’s time.  To be exact, that’s 48% in my state higher.  52% in my region.  And 57% in the US.  58% worldwide.

Am I satisfied with the results?

No, not really.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I moved up.  But I’m not happy with my scores.

I don’t have ring muscle ups.  I’m not as strong as I need to be yet.  My chest to bar, pull ups, and handstand push-ups all need work.  So does other holes in my wheelhouse.

The fact of the matter is I’m not happy unless I’m on top.

Period.

The fact of the matter is I won’t ever be on top because there’s always someone out there better than you.  I get that.

The other fact of the CrossFit Open is it’ll never cater to my strengths and thus I’ll never be on top as well.

My strengths are the long game (workouts over 20 minutes), running, body weight exercises, light-weight barbell moves with many repetitions, and double unders.  We’ll never see Murph in the Open.  Or running (too hard to measure).  Or probably the long game.

These are the workouts I need in order to be on top.

My lamentations are irksome, I know.  I just had to vent.

One thing’s for sure:  I am determined to make vast improvements over this next year.  To have all the moves mastered.  And quickly.  To perfect them as much as I can.  To get stronger.

Then we’ll see what next year holds…

7 thoughts on “I’m Not Happy Unless I’m on Top…

  1. You should be proud of what you’ve achieved.
    Yes, coming first is appears the golden achievement, but compare yourself to yourself, not others.
    The most important improvement is making sure you are a better person today (whether that be crossfit results or any other important aspect to the individual) than who you were yesterday.
    Plus, if you’ve already taken out first place, wheres the great sense of achievement of improving by 1% for the following year when you can obviously see greater percentage improvements as you have since last.

    Dont be too hard on yourself.

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